Friday, March 21, 2008

Now and then..

Every once in awhile, I stumble across something that stops me in my tracks. Something that hits a place so deep in my soul and completely moves me. It may be a lyric in a song or a quote, maybe a scene in a movie or a chapter in a book. It usually happens when I am least expecting it and it happened today while I was snooping around through some blogs. I am a deep thinker and I love reading the words of other passionate thinkers. The blogging world has become an obsession of mine for that reason. It is part of my daily life now, and I am always looking for new blogs that inspire me. I love to see peoples creativeness or just read about their day to day lives. That may seem weird to some seeing as I don't know all of the people that I like to check in with each day, but I love it.

Today I found a blog from a link on another blog and I decided to check it out. It is the blog of Sheye Rosemeyer, a woman from Australia who is not only a wonderful mother, but maybe the best photographer I've ever seen. She has an eye for capturing a moment that not many have. She is the mother to 4 beautiful children, although tragically, last year she lost her 3 year old daughter Ava, in a terribly heartbreaking accident. I started reading the post from today and it was apparent there was something I was missing, so I went back to 2006 and started reading forward. I started this at work, but quickly figured out it was something I would have to read at home as tears were streaming down my face. From what I had read, I could tell something terrible had happened and it's all I could think about all day. I couldn't wait to get home tonight to read through it all.

All I can do is keep sharing what I have learnt..to remind every person out there who does have all their children to just be so, so thankful, to let go of the small stuff and to trust me when I say you have absolutely everything you need.- Sheye

I've spent hours reading through every single post. I've cried, laughed, smiled and cried some more. To see and read about the love that this family has for this little girl who is about the most darling thing you've ever seen, it just breaks my heart and leaves a lump in my throat. It's amazing to me that people I have never met that live half way across the world from me, have had such an impact on me, but I feel that I am forever changed by this. I've always said that I love a dose of reality to keep me in check. I love things that make me think, make me appreciate life and how good it really is. This is one of those things.

I hope I never have to know the pain that this family feels and the daily heartache they endure and I wish they didnt have to know it either, it is simply not fair. I admire their strength and courage and I love how they remember Ava daily and include her still because although she may not be here now, she was here then.
I've always had a special love in my heart for kids as long as I can remember. I am a strong believer that the single most important thing you do in life, is raise your children. I dream about the days where I will have some angels of my own. But until then, I am forever grateful for all the little ones in my life. They have all impacted me and my life more than they will ever know or could ever imagine.

I strongly encourage you to check out her blog, you will forever be changed.



Ava's memorial site.